Five years on

Next week marks the fifth anniversary of Bill's passing.

William Henry Schauer

December 28, 1943-July 5, 2007

Has it been five years really?

Over the past five years I have gone through a lot.  Trials and tribulations.  There had been a lot of tears and frustration, anger and sadness.  And emptiness.  Then gradually I realized that to get out of the void I had to take the first step.  

It was a great leap of faith.

And I found joy.  I found that there is love to be had.  That you don't lose anything by loving and allowing yourself to be loved again.  

I found happiness.  Once again.

I was happy once.  Very happy.

I am happy again.  Very happy.

And I'd like to think that Bill is up there watching.
And I'd like to think that he likes what he sees.


One thing I know for sure:  I am one damned lucky woman!
And I would not have changed a thing.